Uneven

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I've always hated my unevenness.
But we're all a little uneven, right?
Our eyes.
Our feet.
Our breasts.
The two sides of our bodies are more like cousins than sisters.
That's what they say.
Right?
Wrong.
Research says that symmetry is beauty.
Babies are drawn to it.
Men make love to it.
Magazines highlight it.
Doctors will fix your unevenness.
It's for your health.
The less uneven you feel, the better.
But I'm just trying to find balance.
Equilibrium.
My own sense of parallel.

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